Why, God, do we as humans love sin so much? Why is it that it comes more easily than holiness? Why is it that we are not intrinsically good; and rather have to make an effort to get into sin? Why couldn't it be that way?
I know what You require of me, God, but why is it that Your will almost always requires some sacrifice- some great concession on my part? Why should it be so?
I'm so tired of loving sin, God. So fed up with choosing that which kills me on the inside and lowers my spirit. I'm fed up with the world and its 'charms'. They are so empty and shallow. I just want to be free. Everywhere I turn, I see sin; not just sin on its own terms, but the world applauding it, lauding it, heralding and hailing it: corruption, murder, transgenderism, homosexuality, public nudity, lasciviousness, viciousness.
How can we not see that we are dying? How can we not see how we are becoming less than human by fighting so hard against all that we were made to be? I look around me and I want so desperately to heal, to encourage, to help, to do something, anything to wake people up but it all seems too big, and I too small. I can't save the world, God. I can't save my country. I can barely save myself, let alone my family.
We praise You with our mouths but our hearts are steadily fixed on the world and what it can get us. We have no idea that the world we are chasing after is not a mistress but a despotic slavemaster that would have us grovel at its feet. We follow men: charisma, charm, eloquence, instead of truth and holiness. We are addicted to fleeting pleasures that are yet to satisfy us: sex, pornography, substances...
Oh Lord, our days are evil and so full of sin. Have mercy on us, Oh God. Revive us again; and then, come glorious God, come.
I know what You require of me, God, but why is it that Your will almost always requires some sacrifice- some great concession on my part? Why should it be so?
I'm so tired of loving sin, God. So fed up with choosing that which kills me on the inside and lowers my spirit. I'm fed up with the world and its 'charms'. They are so empty and shallow. I just want to be free. Everywhere I turn, I see sin; not just sin on its own terms, but the world applauding it, lauding it, heralding and hailing it: corruption, murder, transgenderism, homosexuality, public nudity, lasciviousness, viciousness.
How can we not see that we are dying? How can we not see how we are becoming less than human by fighting so hard against all that we were made to be? I look around me and I want so desperately to heal, to encourage, to help, to do something, anything to wake people up but it all seems too big, and I too small. I can't save the world, God. I can't save my country. I can barely save myself, let alone my family.
We praise You with our mouths but our hearts are steadily fixed on the world and what it can get us. We have no idea that the world we are chasing after is not a mistress but a despotic slavemaster that would have us grovel at its feet. We follow men: charisma, charm, eloquence, instead of truth and holiness. We are addicted to fleeting pleasures that are yet to satisfy us: sex, pornography, substances...
Oh Lord, our days are evil and so full of sin. Have mercy on us, Oh God. Revive us again; and then, come glorious God, come.
Comments
Post a Comment